looking ahead

Pleasure doesn’t have to be loud, or messy. It was there in everything, in the stillness and even in the uncertainty itself. I was remaking my life. I was writing my way through it.

how do I let my aversions/curiosities actually take form, instead of just orbiting around them abstractly? I want to feel rooted, but with flexible limbs—like a sturdy tree!

what of it is yours, and what is not?

But what we discovered by honing in clearly on what he genuinely wanted was that what he was (unconsciously) seeking was simply showing up with greater devotion to what already existed in his life.

You can move towards something without the same seeking energy that is present when you have not yet traded your potential in for something actual — when each jolt of resonance, attraction, temptation, or consideration contains a whole universe in it that you feel the need to consider or understand before moving on with your life, before you let... See more

I want a life where timelines bend to my becoming.

“It’s better not to know so much about what things mean or how they might be interpreted—you’ll be afraid to let things keep happening.”

But what’s different now is that I no longer delay my life for the next best thing. I choose the next thing and make it the best.

Slowing downwards creates opportunities to dwell more deeply in one’s life, for the home we are looking for in this world is within us all along. The lost home that we are seeking is ourselves; it is the story we carry within our soul.” — Michael Meade