looking ahead

what of it is yours, and what is not?

Pleasure doesn’t have to be loud, or messy. It was there in everything, in the stillness and even in the uncertainty itself. I was remaking my life. I was writing my way through it.

I want a life where timelines bend to my becoming.

But what’s different now is that I no longer delay my life for the next best thing. I choose the next thing and make it the best.

The opposite of an unfolding is a vision. A vision springs, not from a careful understanding of a context, but from a fantasy: if you could just make it into another context your problems will go away.

You can move towards something without the same seeking energy that is present when you have not yet traded your potential in for something actual — when each jolt of resonance, attraction, temptation, or consideration contains a whole universe in it that you feel the need to consider or understand before moving on with your life, before you let... See more

The future we are so worried about controlling begins to unfold smoothly, in a way it cannotwhen we are operating with such tension—always reaching, seeking, pursuing, resisting—instead of being, receiving, and allowing.

how do I let my aversions/curiosities actually take form, instead of just orbiting around them abstractly? I want to feel rooted, but with flexible limbs—like a sturdy tree!

“It’s better not to know so much about what things mean or how they might be interpreted—you’ll be afraid to let things keep happening.”