Natalie Audelo

I've always felt the best work comes from the combination of craft and channeling. But the truth is that a lot of my creative process within music has always relied heavily on the channeling and the flow. I'm trying to work to bring the two together more. I'm focused. I'm studying.

I've been doing a bit of "speed dating." Meeting new collaborators for the first time in almost ten years? A day or two with different people just to get a vibe and throw some paint at the wall. Creative handshakes, if you will. Following the chemistry.

It's been an interesting process. One that has tested a lot of what I know to be true. At the... See more

I want to say thank you, please, I love you so many times that the words become a prayer. I want to hold eye contact and smile with warmth long enough for a nervous heart to steady. I want to listen until sorrow speaks in a dialect I can understand. Because once, when I was all edge, someone handed me gentleness I had not earned, and it softened... See more

To love humans is not optimism; it requires an unrelenting, deliberate faith, the stubborn act of catching every dropped match and insisting it can still light a candle. It is choosing to notice the softness happening everywhere: a stranger pressing tissues into another’s palm, a barista sliding an extra biscuit across the counter, the way a lover... See more

I am grieving a life I’ve been disloyal to; too busy auditioning for all the ones I could have instead.

And I do not want more doors—I want to walk through one without looking back. I want to love something long enough to feel it love me in return. I want to lay foundations on imperfect soil and call it home anyway.

But I have lost myself in a million other people. I’m no longer fluent in my own language. I’ve consumed so many dreams that weren’t... See more