Hazy

The sense of private property ruled the American middle-class household.

These are fair questions, and ones that I hear a lot, from survivors of Autistic burnout and “regular” clinical burnout alike. No matter how profoundly drained and depressed a burned-out person might be (and no matter how much mistreatment got them to that point) they are usually desperate to return to their old, pre-burnout baseline as swiftly as... See more

this is the version of me that forgets to listen to music. who overthinks texts for so long that i never send them. who fills silence with noise just to avoid sitting with my own thoughts. and it always starts the same way: i tell myself i’m “just in a weird phase,” and i try to push through. but the pushing makes it worse. the pushing makes me... See more

One size doesn’t fit all. We’re all unique, and the more we try to fit in with what we think we should be, the more we erase parts of who we are to do it.

That shit is dysregulating AF.

We can’t just pick and choose what we hide of ourselves; it doesn’t work like that. When we “erase” something about ourselves we don’t like, parts of what we like... See more

Being (somewhat) self aware is a funny thing—sometimes I’m just sitting there watching myself fail, getting frustrated that I’m not doing anything about it yet not having the will power to change anything

basically, our integrated selves are up to date about what we want, how we want to show up and the disintegrated selves are still running old patterns. integrative work gets these parts of ourselves on the same page so they can be present and live in this now that our bodies are moving in

But of course we are children, big children who need guidance and reminders of how to live. And yet the modern education system denies this. It treats us all as far too rational, reasonable, in control. We are far more desperate than secular modernity recognises. All of us are on the edge of panic and terror pretty much all the time – and religions... See more