Sublime

At the deepest level, the one without whom none of this would have happened is Gurumayī. The spiritual awakening I had through her grace catalyzed a process of unfolding that allowed me to encounter the words of the Tantrik master Abhinava Gupta as palpably living energy, not mere fossils. Without Gurumayī’s unfailing love and grace, I would likely

is the sense of doership – kartritva buddhi – that forms the impediment.

This is probably K’s first mention of what was to him ‘real’ meditation – ‘making unexpected and amazing discoveries within oneself’ without any direction or purpose.

To do pūjā, japa, dhyāna, or any form of yōga, there must be an ‘I’ to do it. So, since they can be performed only as long as that ‘I’ is there, they cannot get rid of that ‘I’. In order to get rid of that ‘I’, or ego, we need to investigate it, and that is why awareness-investigation is the principal means.