you're not supposed to be here
placelessness, hopelessness, and being unprepared for being alive
you're not supposed to be here
placelessness, hopelessness, and being unprepared for being alive
merely to come into existence is to find oneself thrown into a time and place you didn’t choose, with a personality you didn’t pick, and with your time flowing away beneath you, minute by minute, whether you like it or not.
Whatever we had in mind (consciously or subconsciously) isn’t what’s happening. Instead, it’s more difficult, overwhelming, or dull than we’d envisioned.
Back at my hovel, sitting on my little love-seat sofa, I felt a longing for my mom so intense, it felt like it was filling up my lungs. If she’d been here, I would’ve rested my head on her shoulder and she’d have stroked my hair. I would’ve pressed my ear against her chest, shushed by the rhythm of her breathing. And then she’d have tightened her
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