Things to come back to when I’m feeling meh

The trapped quality of the worker caught in a system he did not construct and from which he cannot extricate himself.

The Second Sex,” philosopher Simone de Beauvoir theorized that feminine narcissism is one of the three “bad faith” responses to the anguish of complete freedom in this chaotic world. She wrote that self-objectification provides “an illusion of a fixed identity;” it offers a temporary sense of tranquility and deludes the woman into believing she is... See more

Knowing that she is to be subjected to the cold appraisal of the male connoisseur and that her life prospects may depend on how she is seen, a woman learns to appraise herself first. The sexual objectification of women produces a duality in feminine consciousness. The gaze of the Other is internalized so that I myself become at once seer and seen,

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This show taught me that coolness is something I value, because without it everything sort of feels random and nondescript. The second you apply a ‘something for everyone’ approach to art in an attempt to deliberately appeal to more people that, in my opinion, is the moment that coolness dies. That is the death of cool.

It is difficult to have solidarity when every interaction is a transaction and every opinion is a tradable asset.5

The patriarchal-capitalist modus operandi is, after all, to dive headfirst and worry later, or not at all. Profit and market pressures repeatedly override safety, ethics, and sustainability, just as some men’s ambitions repeatedly override women’s well-being.

For years, I had managed complexity by overriding my physiology. I stayed regulated enough to be effective, but not regulated enough to be well .