# Recovery

I delude myself into thinking I'll feel better if only I do things my way, which may give me a temporary high but are by no means a longer term salve. Sometimes I pass these actions off as habits I need to practice in order to keep my spiritual backbone strong. Honestly though I can loosen my grip a little and understand the important distinction... See more

I needed to quiet the constant voice in my head wondering why we still didn’t measure up, why we hadn’t accomplished more, why more people didn’t like us, why were we always so alone?

I thought the self-loathing, anxious, ‘not enough’ aspects of my personality were integral to who I was. But they weren’t. Turning to alcohol to cope with that inner critic was a bad decision.

Basically I was trying to gather impediments in my mind to pull me back from pushing myself outside my comfort zone.

the fundamental work of the Steps, understanding ourselves and accepting ourselves in an honest and authentic way.

I can see that I’m lot kinder to myself in the aftermath of these moments. There’s a lot less judgment, and I'm a lot quicker to apologize and try to repair. I can objectively say that my life is one thousand percent better sober, yet I can’t stop imagining the other lives that I want or obsessing over the lives I haven’t had. And then all of my... See more

““The day is to be experienced, not understood!””

— The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have by Mark Nepo

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