# Recovery

I believe the Steps are more like a spiritual initiation that works toward destroying our old, deluded, self-centered selves so that God and our Sober Elders can put the pieces of our lives back together in the form of a wholly new self.

I drank to avoid: that I have to make myself essential so people won't kick me out or abandon me, that my only value is in how useful or accommodating I can be to other people.

Drinking helped me be who I thought I needed to be and helped me forget the person I actually was.

I don’t keep my recovery close to my vest because I don’t believe it to be a thing I should be ashamed of. In fact, it is my greatest achievement, or as Jamie Lee Curtis says, “her greatest legacy.”

I fully believe that my sobriety reaches back in time and heals for my family what they could not heal. I believe my sobriety reaches back in time and... See more

I was a shy and anxious kid, consumed by big feelings and perfectionism, neither of which I understood.

The only way I knew to accommodate the duality in me was to drink.

What other people might think seems like vital information when you have rarely had a felt sense of belonging in the world. I wonder what it's like to just get out of bed, put clothes on, grab your keys, walk out of the house, go to a place, and not think anything of it. Like, not think about any of it. AT ALL.

the road to recovery is paved with self-acceptance.