# Recovery

I delude myself into thinking I'll feel better if only I do things my way, which may give me a temporary high but are by no means a longer term salve. Sometimes I pass these actions off as habits I need to practice in order to keep my spiritual backbone strong. Honestly though I can loosen my grip a little and understand the important distinction... See more

the road to recovery is paved with self-acceptance.

the thing I did that seemed completely impossible at the start was this: I started to live my own life, the one that was meant for me.

I stopped listening to what other people said, I stopped listening to what I imagined people were saying. I stopped listening to the nonsense I said. I started listening to my heart. I stopped pretending and started... See more

Long-distance relationships were, for me, a perfect balance of commitment and freedom. I loved the emotional roller coaster that comes from longing, reconciling and parting, over and over again. I’ve been through three of them, and in each case I was ambivalent about actually moving to the new town. They allowed me to put my best self forward,... See more

“Don’t insist that what happens should happen as you wish, wish that things happen as they actually happen then your life will go well.” — Epictetus

my character defects — or defaults, as my sponsor likes to call them

I did not drink, I came to meetings, I sought God during moments I once did not.

I needed to quiet the constant voice in my head wondering why we still didn’t measure up, why we hadn’t accomplished more, why more people didn’t like us, why were we always so alone?