recovery

When David Foster Wallace said "there's a lot of narcissism in self-hatred" he was absolutely cooking

one of the greatest tricks the devil ever played on humanity is convincing us that there is any such thing as absolute certainty. the only time things are 100% clear are carefully constructed fictions.

anything true, beautiful, eternal requires a leap of faith and pure belief

It’s not that I know how to do this. It’s that my soul is guiding me through this.

—life mantra

Old paradigms die hard. Puking, sweating, convulsing every vestige of What No Longer Works into a heaping pile of shitty compost that will eventually grow something new and beautiful, but not until you’re scraped raw of every notion of what that might be.

At a certain point we’re gonna have to build up some machinery, inside our guts, to help us deal with this. Because the technology is just gonna get better and better and better and better. And it’s gonna get easier and easier and more and more convenient, and more and more pleasurable, to be alone with images on a screen, given to us by by people

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This line from David Foster Wallace still haunts me:

“The next suitable person you’re in light conversation with, you stop suddenly in the middle of the conversation and look at the person closely and say, “What’s wrong?” You say it in a concerned way. He’ll say, “What do you mean?” You say, “Something’s wrong. I can tell. What is it?”

And he’ll

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The three elements I've found most helpful in changing harmful habits and patterned behavior (addictions):

1. First, pause and notice that you're feeling something uncomfortable (most don't realize this) and that you're hoping this pattern will make it go away. Get curious about what that feeling actually is. Be with it.


2. Remind yourself of the

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