other lives

It’s hard when you are in one place and you want to be in another. It’s hard and it’s the human condition. It’s hard when other people get what you want and you see only glimpses and you feel jealous and angry and like they don’t deserve it or they’ve forgotten you or forgotten what it feels like, how bad it feels, to be where you are. And sometime

Look at all the good around you. Of all the lives you could have lived, how wonderful and special is it that you get to live this one?

James Clear 3-2-1

So, even though you have broken my heart yet again, I wanted to say, in another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.

(Everything Everywhere All At Once)

In Youth, you watched this and felt hundreds of feelings, imagined hundreds of futures. Swimming within you were all the serial killer stories you’d one day write, that would be turned into movies just like this, and orbiting just outside the atmosphere of your comprehension (but still in view) were all the unknowable details of the grown-up world

“An ability to tolerate the anxiety generated by ambiguity is what allows us to respect, engage, and grow from our repeated, daily encounters with the essential mysteries of life. But the payoff goes even further. Certainty begets stagnation, but ambiguity pulls us deeper into life. Unchallenged conviction begets rigidity, which begets regression;