desire / hunger / queerness
... See moreTo me, the fantasy elements of sexuality can be more real than the physical. Rachel is so attuned to her body, but she's so afraid of her body. I think to be divorced from hunger, you have to divorce yourself from sexuality. You know? To turn off hunger, you gotta turn off all hunger. It's all interconnected, right? So, to turn off hunger, you're
because i didnt even trust myself around food and my relationship to my body, i didnt trust anything my body told me. i thought what i now realize to be desire were thoughts i thought i had to control.
But more than the new body size, it was the lightness of being that enthralled me; although I didn’t quite understand the connection between trusting myself around food and trusting less tangible hungers (for rest, contact, meaning), the relationship with food became the lens through which I began to see almost everything.
Geneen Roth • Women Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything
as i began to heal from disordered eating, i began to realize what desire was. for so long, i repressed and repressed. at the bottom of maslow’s hierarchy of needs, i repressed hunger. if i was unable to recognize hunger in my body how could i connect to my desires for queerness? for women, both hunger and queerness are things we are conditioned to
... See more... See moreDisordered eating has been found to be associated with constructs involving self-repression, such as selflessness (the tendency to relinquish one’s needs for others’), and concern for appropriateness (an alertness to information about social comparison and tendency to vary one’s behavior in different social situations). This study aimed to examine
At its most basic, anorexia is a disease of desire. You don’t want what you want. You want to not want.
caroline knapp, appetites
What if where I am is what I need? Before you can share anything, you have to know what you desire, and you can’t know until you ask. Asking is an appetite.
maggie nelson, the argonauts
growing up religious, i viewed sex as morally wrong and inherently sinful. because of my deep fear of sin, i deeply feared any interaction with men and avoided them because i thought it put me closer to sin. however, i realize now the fear i forced myself to get over was out of fear of seeming gay because of my distance to men. i forced myself to
... See moreThe rules governing female appetite — for food, for sexual gratification, for recognition — are culturally constructed to regulate not only how women eat but also what women desire.
susan bordo, unbearable weight