cptsd
made to explore the nuances of this condition that plagues me, yet makes me who i am.
re: bio; this is intended to hopefully help others understand their journey, as i acquire the means to understand my own, as well as bring intellectualism & respect to the conversation of cptsd.
Shame is the intensely painful feeling or experience of believing that we are flawed and therefore unworthy of love and belonging.
Hypervigilance is a fixation on looking for danger that comes from excessive exposure to real danger.
and even adjacent exposure to real danger
(ie: hearing a family argument from within the same house, knowing you cannot stop the situation nor help dissolve it.)
Many Cptsd survivors flounder in caustic judgmentalness, shuffling back and forth between pathologizing others [the toxic blame of the outer critic] and pathologizing themselves [the toxic shame of the inner critic]. They get stuck in endless loops of detailing the relational inadequacies of others, and then of themselves.
this <3 this! this!!!
sickeningly accurate.
wanna read at some point; tbd the relevance to topic; just getting tired honk mimimi
i find even well meaning criticism, if i’m in the slightest bit of an abrasive mood, can send me spiraling into anger and upset.
this applies even if the criticism lies within something i simply like or enjoy, and had no agency over creating or executing.
it’s not that i’m not capable of taking criticism, it’s that my inner critic and world takes that statement and spins it to be 1000 times worse than it is.
REALLY good piece actually, combating perfectionism.
“The antidote of shame is not flawless performance. I believe it’s self-acceptance, when you tell yourself: Even when I stumble, I am enough. I will get up again.”
emotions like shame and embarrassment involve a commitment, not to a particular norm per se, but to the shared set of standards operative in our social environment.16 When we feel ashamed of doing something we don’t think is wrong, we’re not ashamed of the behavior per se, but of failing to conform to group norms
rings a cute little bell!!! yes
as well, i dream of not being made to feel like i must be positive about everything.
sometimes, i want to be heard on feeling so shitty, and be told that it must be hard.
Sufferers of complex PTSD have undergone continual abuse—trauma that has occurred over a long period of time, over the course of years. Child abuse is a common cause of complex PTSD,”
the definition, persay.
foundational understanding.
