Ambition

I found that in my self loathing, what I was really doing was protecting myself from actual self reflection that I could improve from. The idea that I was a massive idiot, embarrassing loser, failure, was so extreme that it protected me from any honest and constructive thoughts. The fragility of my self loathing was preventing me from looking at... See more

I wish I could say the delusional thinking changed my mindset instantly, but in reality it was months of doing things in spite of how I felt. Sitting with a feeling of impending doom, and ignoring how mortified I was. Unless I was consciously thinking of it, I would quickly fall back into self loathing.

I was walking a confusing line of self loathing but also somehow thinking I was better than those around me, they were just luckier than me. The universe looked kindly on them and not on me. Gave them ample chances and took all mine away. Poor me.

It was a subconscious pity party. I will admit, it was slightly addictive. It feels good in a sort of... See more

Every now and then, someone asks me what my goal is with After School, and my genuine answer is: you’re looking at it! I don’t want to be a girlboss, even though they do appear to be making a comeback in 2026. I don’t want to build a media company or manage anyone or delegate anything.

In order to fall asleep, you pretend to fall asleep. Perhaps that’s how everything works ... cheers to faking it ’til you make it.

Ask for a favor, get advice. Ask for advice, get a favor. Asking for a favor can put someone in an uncomfortable spot, but asking for advice taps into their intelligence and shows respect. It may feel slower, but it ultimately gets you what you want more effectively.

The world is run by those who show up.

Don’t be the one to tell yourself no