Welp.
This definitely explains why I quit cannabis cold turkey out of the blue last month.
Just woke up and was like “I’m good.”
It was my favorite way to escape until I stopped wanting to escape and I wanted to build a world around myself that I don’t need to escape from.
Welp. This definitely explains why I quit cannabis cold turkey out of the blue last month. Just woke up and was like “I’m good.” It was my favorite way to escape until I stopped wanting to escape and I wanted to build a world around myself that I don’t need to escape from.
My guiding assumption was “Something is fundamentally wrong with me,” and I struggled to control and fix what felt like a basically flawed self. I drove myself in academics, was a fervent political activist and devoted myself to a very full social life. I avoided pain (and created more) with an addiction to food and a preoccupation with achievement
... See moreTara Brach • Radical Acceptance
“It just gives your brain a chance to catch up to your impulse and [ask]—do I really want to be here? No.”
Johann Hari • Stolen Focus: Why You Can't Pay Attention--and How to Think Deeply Again
Recovery as spiritual journey:
First you desperately seek an object to bring you happiness, then, after many face plants, you realize no object can do that, so you stop running and finally face what is, where healing and recovery begin, but then, confronted by your naked wounds without your familiar escape hatch, that too becomes a chase, a far sub... See more
First you desperately seek an object to bring you happiness, then, after many face plants, you realize no object can do that, so you stop running and finally face what is, where healing and recovery begin, but then, confronted by your naked wounds without your familiar escape hatch, that too becomes a chase, a far sub... See more
Alex Olshonsky on Substack
It felt spiritual, almost otherworldly, with many synchronicities occurring. I was “going crazy,” and my sensual capacities were on overdrive. I was told I was going through a Kundalini Awakening. So much energy was channeling through me. I was having breakdowns and breakthroughs every day.
When I was fully plugged into the experience, I felt like I... See more
When I was fully plugged into the experience, I felt like I... See more
How Not To Build a Stoa: A Very Online History of The Stoa
I think everyone knows it’s possible. There’s a great Osho lecture, titled “The Attraction for Drugs Is Spiritual.” He talks about why do people do drugs (everything from alcohol to psychedelics to cannabis). They’re doing it to control their mental state. They’re doing it to control how they react. Some people drink because it helps them not care
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