From Failure to Fresh Start

In 2012, I read an article by the writer Ryan O’Connell for the first time

I know now that being afraid of things going wrong is not the way to make them go right

Every little part of my life meant something, I just didn’t know it at the time

The truth is that everything is hard. It’s hard to be in pain, it’s hard to get out of that pain. It’s hard to follow your dreams, it’s hard to not follow your dreams. It’s hard to be in the wrong relationship, it’s hard to be in the right one

just wanted to feel better, and I didn’t understand any other way to do that other than to change my life

What’s interesting about tracing the story back is that along the way, the elusive “signs” of the purpose I spent my life looking for were right in front of me

My every move revolved around “purpose.” I thought that if I could figure out what I was here to do, everything would feel better

that I didn’t have the capability to recognize what was preventing me from feeling happy in the first place

Or, I tried to avoid pain