every internet person should read these words by steven pressfield
There are no shortcuts. The lottery winner isn’t ultimately happy after their sudden change of fortune. The home built hastily rarely survives the first storm. The single-sentence summary of a book or news event is no substitute for the full story.
Rick Rubin • The Creative Act: A Way of Being

this is almost 95% similar to what ive experienced
its also something ive been trying to write about - I even have a chapter titled "do what feels right" trying to describe this (though honestly feel like below is more interesting) https://t.co/Nkzpc9RCTv
Everything else is just a way to feel productive without actually producing anything of value. You see, all these little "hacks" and "optimizations" are just ways to avoid the hard work of actually creating something meaningful. They're comfort blankets for people who are afraid to face the blank page.