To Thine Own Self be True

Be myself, express myself, show myself, that seems like such a basic formula, and so horribly syrup-y that I can hardly believe these words can even be produced on this keyboard. But that basic formula is the foundation of my recovery and has helped me resolve the greatest fear of my life. The fear of being myself and by myself. This may seem trite... See more

The idea that I would be ridiculed and teased if I were to reveal bits of myself, the things I liked, the things I thought, the things I was afraid of. I came to believe that the only version of me that was palatable and sale-able to the world at large was the one I was painstakingly constructing and that required the prodigious consumption of alco... See more

Drinking helped me be who I thought I needed to be and helped me forget the person I actually was.

The only way I knew to accommodate the duality in me was to drink.