Fwd: 'I'm Too Lazy and Mediocre to Deserve the Life I Want!'

Last night, I slipped back into that belief myself now and then. But then I thought: “All of these doubts are accurate but they’re also an illusion. Because I am the same as Dostoyevsky and I’m the same as every lost person who writes to me and I’m the same as every stranger on the planet. I have to start, that’s all. I have to get up early and try... See more

Dostoyevsky suffered a lot in his lifetime, and it turned him into someone who knew how to pray, how to work hard, how to believe, how to spread his wisdom and even his love with his words. I always thought of Dostoyevsky as this bleak, broken Russian dude who hated everything and everyone. I read Crime and Punishment when I was young and I didn’t ... See more

I thought, “Writing my column is like praying for me. I don’t where I’m headed. I just jump in and go wherever the rushing river takes me. When I trust the river, it brings me to interesting places. I have new feelings and new thoughts I didn’t have before, and they give me fresh courage.”

When you’re as lazy and unspecial as I am, it takes a lot of... See more

“Young man, do not forget to pray. Each time you pray, if you do so sincerely, there will be the flash of a new feeling in it, and a new thought as well, one you did not know before, which will give you fresh courage, and you will understand that prayer is education.”

You were born to be remarkable. This difficult time isn’t a useless delay of what you should become, what you should achieve, what you should be doing instead. This difficult time is your body waking up to what suffering feels like. You’re learning about the different shapes that sadness can take in someone’s life. This is an important phase for yo... See more