Raven Tracer
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Raven Tracer
@tracer
The waves of digital stimuli alter what the brain determines as having priority, so the landscape of sequential process is filled with an unholy multiplicity and the poor creature is mediated by algorithmic tyranny.
What comes to you at night are panoramas, kaleidoscopes of memory, conjecture, dream art, of no fixed contour, whether spatial or temporal, elements of experience and tributaries of being impossible to fix, capture, define, or translate, for they are pure emergence, luminous and free of any Now.
Emotion-Focused Procrastination (Paralysis of Potential triggered by Arousal Seeking):
Delaying exciting tasks because the potential emotional reward is greater than starting.
Driven by brain's (especially ADHD) search for high dopamine (immediate reward from anticipation).
Actual execution offers lower, steady dopamine (delayed reward), often
You have an inchoate, inarticulate, groping feeling that there is something else, something more, something that may be scary but may also be beautiful.
Note: look deeper into the puer eternis concept and the shadow work and tie it into present mentality, ADHD, etc.
The Plain Sense of Things
After the leaves have fallen, we return
To a plain sense of things. It is as if
We had come to an end of the imagination,
Inanimate in an inert savoir.
It is difficult even to choose the adjective
For this blank cold, this sadness without cause.
The great structure has become a minor house.
No turban walks across
... See moreWhen I bleed, ruthless,
Shimmering in all currents,
Autumn glints anew.