Tabitha

I want to find my place

amongst the people of Advent

but I can’t quite decide who I am.

I want to be pregnant with God

but it takes such a toll on the body.

I have given birth to things before

And labor is hard and untimely //

I want to welcome angels and say yes,

to anything.

but if I saw an angel I would hold him

hostage and send a ransom note of questions

“This family, of whom it is uniquely true that they are chosen by God to carry forward His will for humankind, must be as unhappy as any family could be. When we consider what the favor of God can look like, Jacob and his sons should surely be borne in mind.”

Reading Genesis by Marilynne Robinson, page 206 (talking about the saga of Joseph’s

“Trust in the value of making things, not just in the value of the things you’ve made. Try to avoid being overly invested in the outcome. Let go of that as much as you can.

“Remember: You’re not for everyone. Your work isn’t for everyone. If you’ve made something no one would object to, it’s probably something no one will feel passionate about

“Eighty percent of any meeting or gathering might be stupid and beneath you, but the other twenty percent will save you: it will open up your brain and expand your life and give you connection, a place in the family of man.”

— Anne Lamott, Somehow (121)