Eastlyn Frankel

I watched this film for the second time today and came away with a more nuanced understanding. At first, I was so stunned by the casual way this film depicts a 15-year-old girl having sex with her mother’s very much adult boyfriend. I found the story to be kind of meandering, and I wasn’t obsessed with the characters but I did really love the cartoon illustrations and Bell Powley’s portayal of Minnie. However after a second watch, I feel I was able to absorb more of the elements of discovering oneself and one’s sexuality at a young age. It makes me also think about my mad fat diary, and the ways that certain people are allowed to explore the sexuality and feel empowered while others explore their sexuality internally when they don’t get the validation that maybe they were hoping for. “Maybe nobody loves me” was a line at the end of the film and a constant theme running through the movie that I did find touching on this second watch. Very curious to see a more nuanced analysis of the depictions of young women’s sexuality and safe ways to explore it.

• I feel like this is so interesting because my whole life Ive wanted to be perceived as a reader or as someone who is well read and yet my recall for reading is very poor. Its very difficult for me to summarize things, I feel like I forget something the second I close the book, and forget what I liked about it. Annotating my books takes me away from the flow of the story itself. And as someone with ADHD its so easy for my attention to be diverted. I also struggle with reading when I don’t have someone to talk about the books with. But at the same time, I feel like I can’t be a purist, and also can’t be cutting down the ways that this could potentially make harder texts more accessible. I have seen the ways AI has been so helpful in my life for cutting down on decision paralysis which is something I struggle with having ADHD but what am I giving up. 

• Also in terms of being well read, the article states that will no longer be a signal that someone is intelligent which I find interesting. The way this article portrays it - is very seemingly objective, neither truly vilifying AI or praising it but instead reflecting on the ways that it is bound to change our experience of interacting with texts. but as someone with ADHD I know that I take more stuff in when I read it then when I listen to it. But is that even true? I always think about when people say they listened to the audiobook for something and if that counts. I always wanted to be a faster reader and now I maybe can be, but if I can’t recall any of the information what’s the point. Also how are the blindspots in AI, at least racially or gender-wise etc. or how they are being trained going to affect the kinds of information it gives us.