Sublime

it was hard to understand exactly who I was mourning.

Jouissance

These phenomena aren’t matters of indifference or bad taste. This is what arises from our increasingly unnatural experience of community, of culture, of public life, of identity, of bodies in space.

I had been hiding myself, even though I was living a much more public existence.

Local Boys Found After 72-Hour Search, read one headline paired with a black-and-white photograph of two skinny-limbed kids in cargo shorts and sneakers posing for a camera. The picture had been taken at his twelfth birthday. Eddie had pushed him into the swimming pool with his flip-phone still in his pocket an hour later and they’d had a muddy fis

schadenfreude.

deference

In the culture, there’s always a dialogue between the past, the present, and the future, even when it’s not clear what the influence is.

the world winnowed to this immediate moment.