Hazy

So what if the process of emotional development is disrupted by way of inadequate care, nurturance and guidance by significant others? Maybe strong emotions would then not be welcome, or others may even learn to devalue one's own emotional experience as it is viewed to be problematic or fearful when out of control. In essence, this would be... See more

this is the version of me that forgets to listen to music. who overthinks texts for so long that i never send them. who fills silence with noise just to avoid sitting with my own thoughts. and it always starts the same way: i tell myself i’m “just in a weird phase,” and i try to push through. but the pushing makes it worse. the pushing makes me... See more

Days and weeks go by and the regularity of existing eclipses the miraculousness of it. But there are certain moments when we manage to be viscerally aware of being alive. Sometimes those are very scary moments, like narrowly avoiding a car accident. Sometimes they are beautiful, like holding your newborn in your arms. And then there are the quiet

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There are two ways to make the world more mesmerizing: to seek out new and increasingly intense experiences, or to loosen the filters that make ordinary experience “ordinary”. You can go skydiving, or you can meditate for long enough that walking feels like skydiving. Either way, I think what we’re seeking is an escape back into what we used to be,... See more