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I have been thinking: we’re both unusually free people, but I think we have different mechanisms for being free.
with you, it’s like you never believe you have any effect on people. maybe you don’t think you’re a person because you haven’t decided what sort of person to be.
you always think no one can see you, which of course gives you the crazy free
And hadn’t I always gone into the world making everyone and everything a lesson and how it should be? Somehow I turned myself into the worst thing in the world: I was just another man who wanted to teach me something!
how should a person be? sheila heti
Now that I had no hope of finding my soul by staying where I was, I wanted to take a different route to the one thing that would just justify the ugliness inside me: I would become Important.
how should a person be? sheila heti
And you—you want to be the human ideal! We’re crazy. We all want such big things!
What was so crazy about wanting to be the human ideal? That upset me.
how should a person be? sheila heti
This means that if we switch what we pay attention to more often than, say, every 30 minutes, our system will be more or less decohered—different parts will be “attending to” different aspects of reality.2 There will be “attention residue” floating around in our system—leftovers from earlier things we paid attention to
Almost anything you give sustained attention to will begin to loop on itself and bloom
A stress hormone like cortisol, on the other hand, has a half-life of 60–90 minutes and so can take up to 6 hours to fully clear out after the onset of an acute stressor.
Almost anything you give sustained attention to will begin to loop on itself and bloom
I think a lot about how we don’t have anything in software in the category of luxury.
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can intellectual intimacy replace physical desire?
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