The Self

It's such a funny thing. Threats--like hurricanes and rectal exams--are only scary until they arrive. Once they're over, they're just the basis for funny stories. But, you do nearly always survive them. And, if you didn't survive? It wasn't because of a lack of fear. Like I say, the universe doesn't particularly care whether you're scared.

Two truths (no lies):

1. Once you are moderately happy, it’s very hard to get any happier.

2. Everybody secretly believes they can be the exception to this rule.

It's now become unavoidably clear to me that I've been doing each of these things poorly. The job, the making, the pleasing, and, yeah, the being at home. And I can't live with that for another day. So, I've chosen which one has to go. At least in the way it's worked to date. Which is to say not working.

ncertainty is the condition of not knowing what comes next, the fear of change that is beyond our control and likely at odds with our thriving. It is a state of worry, of insecurity, of a lack of faith in the systems that keep us alive and living. It is, so often, intolerable.

And yet, as Le Guin reminds us, uncertainty is also the only thing that... See more

fastly was not a culture fit for me and it was dimming my shine