slow is smooth

There’s no immediate return. In fact, it’s achingly slow. Coherence takes practice. So does any form of love or devotion. You wake up and you choose it and the next day you gladly do it all over again.

My countervailing advice to people trying to understand something is: go slow. Read slowly, think slowly, really spend time pondering the thing. Start by thinking about the question yourself before reading a bunch of stuff about it. A week or a month of continuous pondering about a question will get you surprisingly far.