slow

sometimes, when i’m sitting on the floor with zay, surrounded by half-eaten snacks and dog toys, i’ll catch this fleeting wave of awareness. it’s not epiphany-level or dramatic — just a small tug that says: you’ll miss this someday. and every time, it feels like a small act of rebellion against the culture of striving. to stop, to look around, to... See more

Pregnancy has taught me a new rhythm—one that listens inward, that doesn’t rush the unfolding. Life grows slowly, in secret, guided by something very ancient. I can feel the first humans drawing on caves and the first human babies being born. I’m trying to apply that same tenderness to my everyday creative life. To trust that if something needs... See more

Sometimes an experience can seem brief in the moment but long in memory, and vice versa. A classic example is the “holiday paradox”: while on vacation, time speeds by because you’re so overwhelmed by new experiences that you don’t keep track of time. But when you return from your vacation, it suddenly feels longer in retrospect, because you made... See more

i’ve been experimenting with what i call “deliberate inefficiency.” no timers. no productivity playlists. no tracking. just letting things take the time they take. folding laundry without a podcast. making coffee without answering emails. sitting in silence that doesn’t immediately demand to be useful. it feels awkward at first — like you’ve... See more

Generally, an event feels longer in the moment if it heightens awareness. But we seldom think of time in the moment; the majority of our sense of time is retrospective. And our sense of retrospective time is determined by awareness of the past: in other words, by memory. The more we remember of a certain period, the longer that period feels, and... See more

sometimes i think we’re all a little scared of stillness because it doesn’t declare its value. it doesn’t look productive. you can’t post it. it doesn’t come with a dopamine spike or a pat on the back. but that’s precisely why it’s necessary. stillness is where the data of your life finally turns into meaning.

the other day, i caught myself scrolling through old photos — not the big ones like vacations or birthdays, but the blurry in-between ones i used to skip over. and i realized those are the photos that move me now. the ones where nothing was happening. someone mid-laugh, an empty coffee cup, the view from a car window on a random tuesday. i think... See more

It's normal to cry during a total solar eclipse or a full moon. It triggers the emotional connection that exists between humans and nature—an ancestral bond. It’s a natural perspective, considering that as a species, we evolved over centuries in wild environments, in tune with the slow cycles of the landscape and within them. We might take another... See more

The opposite of a maze is a route, and a route through time is a story. This is because stories are linear and syntagmatic — each moment of the tale semantically follows from the previous — and this collective meaningfulness anchors the whole thing in memory. This is why studies have consistently found that people are much better at memorising... See more