On Becoming & Identity
The ambiguity of Becoming and having an Identity
On Becoming & Identity
When I think about being unhappy or anxious to the point of panic in the future, it makes me recoil in horror. It is as if though now, I must be failing at my life trajectory, or my recovery trajectory if that’s how my future looks like
But when I remember I’m a becoming, a very temporally-limited sense of clarity washes over me. Because becoming
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I rarely think before I speak, and I think that might be because I tend to be rather anxious about stuff – so when I rush to overexplain, entertain, or please others, I say things that are quite superficial. I am scared of presenting my work, my research, to other experts, especially in a conversational and non-formal setting. And it is precisely
... See moreLike, when I put “hyperbole-machine” in my Tumblr bio, it felt soooo good. Like I agreed with myself that this is what I am. I got so excited I wanted to tell everyone. “Heyy! I am a hyperbole-machine, get it? Because I am over-excited about shizz and I will tell you 5 times a month that about my new favourite song ever, and the best and coolest book I’ve ever read”
1. Inner Life & Identity (Self-in-Context)
What part of me feels most alive or most distant today?
What assumptions about myself did I notice, reinforce, or challenge?
Where am I performing, and where am I simply being?
What part of me wants to be seen—but hasn’t yet found the words?
What feels like “mine,” and what feels inherited or borrowed?
What part
becoming a [computing-internet-creative] [researcher-artist-technologist-???]
(clearly still searching for a term that feels right, or maybe I don’t need just one term and should embrace these multiplicities?)
(clearly still searching for a term that feels right, or maybe I don’t need just one term and should embrace these multiplicities?)