nihilism

I was reading about “learned helplessness," a psychological condition that arises when one is not able to effect a change in one’s environment. It is characterized by “a drop in zest, decreasing clarity, withdrawal from connection, less self-knowledge, and a decrease in sense of self-worth.” To me, this is what it feels like to be on my seventh

death salience + unfazed resiliency that are unspoken drivers behind so many behaviors today.

The feeling we’re left with, God. How to describe it? It’s the feeling that nobody has our back. That we can’t trust anyone. That this world is terrifying and we are powerless, but if we attach to anything for support, we will be abandoned. I see it everywhere ; it cuts to the core of this generation**.** Difficulty trusting people,

Once you start looking for disassociation, it’s everywhere. It’s in the way we consume media, and how so much of what we consume is so targeted now, and you have to work hard to get another perspective, and we all spend time buying products that we know are not necessarily coming from an ethical place or arriving through an ethical process. But

They’ll tell you, you need to be kind and forthright and aggressive and meditative and a free spirit and dependable and cautious and not be pushed around and live free or die and be helpful and put your own gas mask on first and be spiritual and religious and empirical and scientific and hate this and vault that and play to your talents and always