CPTSD

You're not weird for struggling w/ phone calls. Many trauma survivors experience a very specific spike of anxiety around making (or receiving, for that matter) calls-- & many keep our reactions under wraps, because we're not "supposed" to be triggered by something so "normal."

REACTIVE ABUSE Is when someone pushes you until you act out of character. Then, they shame you for your reaction. If you hold a match to a candle, sooner or later, it will start to burn.

I just realized people who overexplain themselves aren’t looking for validation. They’re just used to not being believed - forced to prove their memories, their pain, their worth, their truth - until they’re exhausted from just existing.