Aliveness

a common misconception about going deep in a subject and researching it day in and day out is that its novelty will wear off. it doesn't wear off, but your perspective on novelty changes. for a novice, novelty is newness. for an expert, novelty is nuance.

You can’t optimize your way toward feeling alive. Efficiency is a tool to enable life; it is not a life.

It is your aliveness that matters. Perhaps it is the only thing that matters. If any method is not getting you closer to that fundamental expression of a aliveness that method is not really serving you regardless of how strong or old it's practices;