So why can’t I seem to do the same thing with my father? Why can’t I stop missing the dad I never had? Why is he this constant dull ache in my heart? I knew he wouldn’t change.

You deserve to heal from these wounds,

“My dear child, I know you are there, and I am here for you. If you have something to tell me, please say it to me.” After some moments, allow yourself to speak as that small child, expressing anything you never got a chance to share.