Shame is a hidden emotion that is not only destructive but grows powerful the more we hide it.

Toxically shamed people tend to become more and more stagnant as life goes on. They live in a guarded, secretive and defensive way. They try to be more than human (perfect and controlling) or less than human (losing interest in life or stagnated in some addictive behavior).

Everything I was doing in my outer life was a consequence and an expression of that terror and that shame.

guilt, or shame, you're on a low-vibe