Pain & Surprise

In fact, radical changes in life can often be surprising in how liberating they can feel. Suddenly you find out that your desperate circumstances are a kind of gift. You would never have taken those new steps if you had had the option of keeping up your safe boundaries. It can be exhilarating to find out that you can still function, that life goes

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Nothing looks the way I thought it would look. Some of it has been more delightful than I expected, much of it has been more heartbreaking than I ever planned for — or thought I could survive. Yet here I am, living out the story that I am, at best, co-creating in collaboration with mysterious and invisible forces. It has been, at every turn, intere... See more

My world had become very small, in the way of addicts. This island: I had chosen smallness, safety. What’s safer than an island? During this period, the children sometimes discussed the coming zombie apocalypse, and they and their friends agreed it was good that we lived on an island. An island is safe and contained and one’s choices are necessaril

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