This blog is a space for dreaming

I woke up angry today. As I got dressed, put on makeup, and took my dog to the park, I tried to puzzle through why. Then I cleared my mind and stayed with the feeling until it shifted, clicked. Turns out that I was mostly frustrated at myself. But as anyone who knows me understands, I find it very easy to forgive

Here we go again. Crying, for the fourth time today, I felt small. My boyfriend looked at me, clearly stable and well, and I felt even smaller. It was hot in my sweatshirt, the one he’d gifted to me. My skin prickled from the inside out. It was 4PM and I’d only eaten a slice of pumpkin bread and half a box of uncooked ravioli. I couldn’t decide

me of the now

• running clubs

• active wear

• garmin or apple watch

• need to send this email

• email sits in drafts for days

• never sends the email

• talks to them in person

• schedule sending emails to clients so they think i have a balanced life

• cries 1-5 times a day

repeat?