At first, it felt like slipping into hibernation without consent. A shot of anesthetic to the brain. I still did what needed doing - made my morning coffee, trained at the gym, followed my routines. But beneath the motion was a hollow numbness, an utter lack of will to do anything at all. Then slowly, what was supposed to be the vehicle I use to

me of the now

• running clubs

• active wear

• garmin or apple watch

• need to send this email

• email sits in drafts for days

• never sends the email

• talks to them in person

• schedule sending emails to clients so they think i have a balanced life

• cries 1-5 times a day

repeat?