that I didn’t have the capability to recognize what was preventing me from feeling happy in the first place

Every little part of my life meant something, I just didn’t know it at the time

I know now that being afraid of things going wrong is not the way to make them go right

My every move revolved around “purpose.” I thought that if I could figure out what I was here to do, everything would feel better

In 2012, I read an article by the writer Ryan O’Connell for the first time

make a formula for happiness

What’s interesting about tracing the story back is that along the way, the elusive “signs” of the purpose I spent my life looking for were right in front of me

just wanted to feel better, and I didn’t understand any other way to do that other than to change my life

Or, I tried to avoid pain