Blackout: Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget

Of course, he solved his actual Rubik’s Cube. I gave up, and changed the stickers.

What’s the difference between a person who’s unfulfilled and a person who’s impossible to please?

As much as my father was there during my childhood, he was also not there.

I wanted to fast-forward through this dull segment. I want to skip to the part when I was no longer broken and busted

That was the worst sin of all: trying too hard.

I did not. My writing was a kind of literary karaoke. I aped the formulas and phrasings of older critics whose work I admired.

Lindsay and I worked on paper, but I couldn’t lose the nagging suspicion we were missing an essential spark. I wanted more, but I also thought maybe I was being unrealistic. What’s the difference between a person who’s unfulfilled and a person who’s impossible to please?

I knew AA worked miracles. What nobody ever tells you is that miracles can be very, very uncomfortable.

So I started inhabiting my own body again, because it was not going to go away.