At Last A Life

The key here was to allow myself to fall into my deepest suffering without feeling the need to fix, change or suppress it, only then would I be truly allowing.

If you are a constant worrier, perfectionist or think that life should always follow your rules and get stressed if it doesn't, then a real change is needed.

The truth is that it’s not you that is thinking about your anxiety; it’s your mind’s habit to continually think about the subject.

You now see that avoiding, suppressing or protecting yourself from it just isn't working.

But previously I never accepted this; life always had to go how I wanted it to and others must behave how I thought they should.

by refusing to feel it, nothing changed. It was only when I understood what was happening that my attitude shifted and I became open to it. As I now knew that this release, although uncomfortable, was a good thing and it was my body just looking after me by trying to free up this energy.

Worrying basically comes down to wanting one’s life to go perfect and to fit into your ideal of what should and should not happen;

If I learnt one valuable lesson, it is that we were never put on this earth to suffer and that suffering is our alarm call. It is telling us that what we are doing is not serving us in life and that a change is needed.

I was making recovery way too important and just focusing on how to rid myself of how I felt, instead of just living and seeing what came along naturally.