Alcohol Explained (William Porter's 'Explained')

With a drink in me, my confidence returned, my direction seemed clear-cut, and I reveled in lofty plans and dreams for the future. Drinking to escape became as important as eating to survive.

It is all illusion. We are never addicted to the chemical itself. What addicts us is the belief that we get some genuine benefit from taking it, which in turn creates a false belief that you cannot enjoy certain occasions or cope with others without it. What addicts us in the case of alcohol is the inebriation! Or rather the illusion that the inebr

Drinking released me from the suffocating fear, the feelings of inadequacy, and the nagging voices at the back of my head that told me I would never measure up.

When you drink in order to transform yourself, when you drink and become someone you’re not, when you do this over and over and over, your relationship to the world becomes muddied and unclear.