Jess

That "big, fake smile" and the constant "nothing words" are incredibly revealing. When you combine that with her "stealing" your ideas and claiming them as her own, a very specific psychological profile emerges: The Vulnerable (or Covert) Narcissist with a "Spiritualized" Mask.

Pay attention to all that’s more-than-we-deserve. Keep your heart soft with gratitude.

stewarding tools to give others a foretaste of glory without needing to put a label on the box.

Since you are "all-in" and struggle with headspace, the "Divided Day" model (doing a little of everything every day) is likely your enemy.

I hear the weight in your words, and I want to start by speaking directly to that guilt: God is not angry with you. In fact, the story of the Israelites in the Transjordan—before they ever reached the "holy" work of the Tabernacle in the Promised Land—offers a profound validation of the season you are in.

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2. The Strategy of "Settling the Land"

In Deuteronomy 3, the tribes of Reuben, Gad, and the half-tribe of Manasseh asked to stay in the Transjordan because the land was good for their livestock.

• The Application: They recognized a resource (the fertile land) and asked to turn it into a vocation. Moses agreed, provided they helped the rest of the

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1. The "Secular" Work was a "Sacred" Requirement

When the Israelites were in Bashan, they weren't in the Tabernacle. They were doing "secular" work: marching, managing logistics, fighting, and securing land.

It is you taking care of the "land" He has placed you in. Providing for your household is a biblical mandate (1 Timothy 5:8). In this season, your children's book is your "battle at Edrei." It is the work required to secure your family's borders so you can live in peace later.