Sublime

Tag someone who can relate. I'm gonna go ahead and tag myself. 🤦‍♀️⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #R29Regram: @fakecharm

I spent my entire life in my head until I was nearly 30 years old. Constant anxiety, could never focus, multiple psychiatric diagnoses, no good habits, no consistency, no follow-through. Just chaos and barely scraping by. In and out of depression and beating myself up constantly

#2024 #2025

I used to be depressed isolated unfocused volatile and directionless. a binge eater, a shopaholic, extremely socially anxious. all in all, a peak useless human being, destined for nothing. I was smart. I... See more

i've found that embodying deep okayness marks the beginning of a multi-year process of feeling deep pain.. but with no/minimal suffering when we finally get a taste of true self-love & secure attachment with reality, all parts of ourselves that feel unloved scramble from the shadows to the surface in order to be met and... See more

re-learning how to try is a long, long process

i lost the person i loved most because i treated life like a deterministic optimization problem spent 2 years obsessively planning every variable: - career trajectory - skill acquisition timelines - financial milestones - "personal growth"... See more

burning out is real btw. when i was 18 i thought it was something for dummies who didn't wanna work. it took me ~3 years to recover fully, and could physically not work for 5months after it happened