Sublime

A phenomenon that a number of people have noted while in deep depression is the sense of being accompanied by a second self—a wraithlike observer who, not sharing the dementia of his double, is able to watch with dispassionate curiosity as his companion struggles against the oncoming disaster, or decides to embrace it. There is a theatrical quality

through the yearbook carefully from cover to cover looking for him. He isn’t in any group picture or on any list of names.

Clean Old-fashioned Hate