Sublime

Security and love, these were the two things I did not feel as a child, so I chased after them now, sometimes bumping into things and knocking them down in the process. I was an emotional Great Dane, hugely needy and clumsy.

He was happiest when he did not have to think about his body—when he could forget that he had a body at all.

I had taken him for confident when he was in truth full of worry and terror.

and secretly I hope I have the bruise for the rest of my life.

We can continue to live exactly as we do right now, in a heavy-lidded state of love and unspeakable compromise. Isn’t that what people do? Every day? Don’t they ache but rename it tired?

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