Renee De Four
@reneedefour
Renee De Four
@reneedefour
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Recent a-ha moment: Iām an expert at being myself. Iāve spent so much time searching for my āthingā, my craft to master. After all writers having writing, artists have drawing and painting, musicians have songwriting and learning their instrument - what do I have? I have me, my own unique blend of things. A Being to explore.
Maybe I donāt have one craft to master this time around. Maybe I just need to express me as authentically and unhindered as possible.
š Agnes Martin - My Rabbit Hole of Exploration
Here is the answer to the question I asked in the first post. Agnes Martin discovered that painting was all she needed to be fulfilled in this life. I wonder at what age in life did she discover this? Was it an innate knowing or did she struggle?
I envy people like this who know what their āthingā is. Iām 30 years old and it frustrates me deeply that I donāt have a strong affiliation with one thing. Whether thatās writing, or reading, painting or playing an instrument. Iām starting to wonder if I need to try new things?
What I do enjoy - building workflows with digital tools, solving problems by creating systems does not feel like an artistic thing!
I can build and perfect a Notion or Tana workflow for hours until a solution is found but something feels like itās missing. Maybe itās because itās not tangible like painting?
I donāt know but I think I need to pick up pottery - maybe that will be my thing.
Update 1/4/25 9:15 pm - This quote also reminds me of Hirayama from Perfect Days. He too discovered something far more precious than material accumulation.