sarah

this made me feel alive, the beginning of liver you should’ve come over rips my heart open it is profoundly inspiring in the intro only to go into a song that is just heartbreaking. i guess that’s what the song is about an inspired lover walking slowly and surely into arms that will soon be too far to touch.

this girl laying in the snow reminds me of all the times i felt so much inside that i needed to be somewhere where my surroundings were bigger. somewhere so beautiful and big, i had to look at it. here she’s laying in the snow forcing herself to look up, she’s undoubtedly cold. when im happy i don’t force myself to do stuff like freeze on the ground in the snow to look up at it falling. i think that is a way to feel something greater and bigger until it makes you feel so human that you’ve got to come back to yourself. when i was depressed i would wake up and go sit uncomfortable in the wet grass and watch the sunrise on the shore of diamond head, then at lanai lookout when it was so windy. before i was sad, and overwhelmed i felt i did things a little more performatively, i liked being able to say i did them but none the less i DID them and i think that matters more at the end of the day. i want to continue this. Just the other day i went outside and i just sat and watched the full moon rise, i just sat in silence without my phone. doing this is important and i would like to do it when im happy too, not just when i am feeling so much inside that i have to in order to pull myself out of it

journal prompt

12 wishes ritual

(my) aries rising annual profections year chart and the years ruler

this is a quote i want to live by, i want to only be kind, not just to strangers but to all, for there will always be people who take but kindness and love heals, deters, protects, and prevails

you can also visit this beautiful bookstore and stay there for free if you choose, on the conditions that you read one book a day and help stock the shelves