Mia de Fleurac
@macadamia
Mia de Fleurac
@macadamia
not sure where to write this, but this piece made me think of how in my first year of isolation, I achieved “neutrality” towards my work (unaffected by feedback) and confident in whatever is was (not judging it as good or bad but just necessary), partly because of this state of isolation. I was in the mental state described here, and I think this is partly what I chase his isolation –freedom from norms and conventions, safety for my larval ideas, immunity from perception. The return to perception was a shock that broke me out of this rhythm completely.
To state it in slightly different terms: in those critical years I learned how to be alone.... See more
[. . .] these three years of work in isolation, when I was thrown onto my own resources, following guidelines which I myself had spontaneously invented, instilled in me a strong degree of confidence, unassuming yet enduring, in my ability to do mathematics,
The Knight: As you know, I am afraid of emptiness, desolation and stillness. I cannot bear the silence and isolation.
Death: Emptiness is a mirror turned to your own face.