Lily Drew

Preemptive car crash

I’d tell myself we’d meet there

Barefoot on jagged rocks.

And try not to get the blood on my laced white dress as I run to you.

Glacier expression framed with wool

Frowned at my eager face and turned away,

I’d tap your shoulder and still hold out my cold cupped hands,

And grin wide eyed, if you crushed my heart into ashes, and blew them into the wind.

Healing isn’t linear- song that puts all stages together mixed up

Denial - not accepting failures and running away from past selves

Anger - repressed anger - self destructive

Bargaining- trying to understand myself and reflect and help but falling into toxic self improvement and uptight

Depression- how I view my depression/ severe depressive episodes

Acceptance- accepting flaws and adapting and changing to better