"I was waiting for something extraordinary to happen, but as the years wasted on, nothing ever did unless I caused it.”

—Charles Bukowski

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***seeking a vibe at the end of the world***

i wanted to start this by saying that “i’ve been thinking about the end of the world lately” but it's hard to make that sound not… dramatic. pretentious. but it is true (though not the ‘lately’ bit). i've been here a long time. not so much thinking about the fact of the world ending, but the peri

"When everything is readily available and consumable, contemplative attention is impossible." (Byung-Chal Han, Vita Contemplativa)

a personal parenthesis

at 23 i left home, not just the house i lived in but the country i lived in, to pursue an abstract "better life".

i wasn't sure what it would look like, but a new job gave me a ticket out and i took it with the full confidence that in about 5 years i would know what was actually next in my life. a stepping stone into a five yea

Zen can essentially be reduced to three things.

Everything changes;

everything is interconnected;

pay attention to it.

Flaubert famously said, “Be regular and orderly in your life, so that you may be violent and original in your work.”