Ella Jefferies
@joffpuppy
Ella Jefferies
@joffpuppy
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I never have really tried to actually give art a go, because I’ve always been too scared of failing and not able to deal with my expectations of perfection not being met.
Stepping towards this would bring on a whole other string of issues, like when the clown pull out the handkerchief, and then it just keeps going and going.
Im noticing that when each year passes, the feeling of deep regret is incrementally inflating inside my stomach - slowly spreading like a noxious gas that might take over my whole body and eventually ill retch the creativity out of me. The source of this regret is the idea that I could go my whole life without actualising any of my creative endeavours with my full, unrestrained devotion.
And what hurts even more is that I go on living my life in denial of what I actually want to pursue all because of something as trivial as the internalised fear of failing.
Aphrodite
a love triangle?