Carter Alvarran Belz
@hopelikeyou
they/them | 21 | lesbian | chronically + mentally ill
Carter Alvarran Belz
“You pile up associations the way you pile up bricks. Memory itself is a form of architecture.”
A quote from Louise Bourgeois
Author Karl Ove Knausgard on being fully immersed in life:
"What makes life worth living? No child asks itself that question. To children life is self-evident. Life goes without saying: whether it is good or bad makes no difference. This is because children don't see the world, don't observe the world, don't contemplate the world, but are so deeply... See more
"What makes life worth living? No child asks itself that question. To children life is self-evident. Life goes without saying: whether it is good or bad makes no difference. This is because children don't see the world, don't observe the world, don't contemplate the world, but are so deeply... See more
the weirder, the better
instagram.comredefining my relationship with suffering
sundusalfi.com
Terms the undepressed toss around and take for granted as full and fleshy—happiness, joie de vivre, preference, love—are stripped to their skeletons and reduced to abstract ideas. They have, as it were, denotation but not connotation. The anhedonic can still speak about happiness and meaning et al., but she has become incapable of feeling anything
... See moreDavid Foster Wallace • Infinite Jest
To become chronically ill is not only to have a disease that you have to manage, but to have a new story about yourself, a story that many people refuse to hear—because it is deeply unsatisfying, full of fits and starts, anger, resentment, chasms of unruly need.
Meghan O'Rourke • The Invisible Kingdom: Reimagining Chronic Illness
“Most of us think of ourselves as thinking creatures that feel, but we are actually feeling creatures that think."
— Jill Bolte Taylor